Dragon - Part One

What we had was nothing but a dragon.

Creatures we think are magical, mysterious, beautiful

Creatures we sometime wish could exist

But then someone comes around and says that they don’t

That’s what we had

Something that I thought was magical, mysterious, beautiful

Something that I thought was perfect

But to you, it was nothing

Something that never existed

So how do you expect me to feel about it?

Okay?

Content?

Dismissive?

Well I can’t.

You wanna know why?

Cause I put myself out on the line for you

I let myself hang by a thread.

Vulnerably

Intentionally

Heck, I didn’t even think about it

I was so caught up

I found myself so infatuated that when I got screwed over

I couldn’t help but feel blindsided

Taken advantage of

So, yeah.

I guess you could say I’m a little upset

But you know what?

Whatever

There’s nothing I can do about it

I tried, but you couldn’t care less

My wanting to have a two-way discussion

Turned into a one-way this is what’s going to happen

And I’m done trying

So maybe one day you’ll get off your high horse

Maybe one day something could happen

Once we both mature

Perhaps the distance is what we need

I mean, almost a thousand miles?

That’s pretty good

But who knows?

It’s not really worth thinking or worrying about

At least in this moment, it’s not

I guess I just wish that we could figure this out

Discuss what happened with us

What went wrong?

Cause honestly, I have no idea

What we had made me happier than I’ve been in a long time

It was probably the happiest I’ve ever been

So what happened to change that?

Was it something I did?

Was it something you needed?

I suppose I just miss what we had

Why can’t we talk about this?

What are we afraid of?

Cause I know, despite everything that happened, I need you in my life

And, I don’t know, I like to think you feel the same – I hope you do

I guess I just wish that one day we’d figure this out

But to be honest, I’m fine where things are now

I’m glad that we’re comfortable enough with each other

That we can, I guess, put all that behind us

And just be friends

I think that’s what we both need the most right now

I’m glad that you can be that for me

And I’m glad I can be that for you 

Written July 2013

By Elisse Cook