Dragon - Part One

What we had was nothing but a dragon.

Creatures we think are magical, mysterious, beautiful

Creatures we sometime wish could exist

But then someone comes around and says that they don’t

That’s what we had

Something that I thought was magical, mysterious, beautiful

Something that I thought was perfect

But to you, it was nothing

Something that never existed

So how do you expect me to feel about it?

Okay?

Content?

Dismissive?

Well I can’t.

You wanna know why?

Cause I put myself out on the line for you

I let myself hang by a thread.

Vulnerably

Intentionally

Heck, I didn’t even think about it

I was so caught up

I found myself so infatuated that when I got screwed over

I couldn’t help but feel blindsided

Taken advantage of

So, yeah.

I guess you could say I’m a little upset

But you know what?

Whatever

There’s nothing I can do about it

I tried, but you couldn’t care less

My wanting to have a two-way discussion

Turned into a one-way this is what’s going to happen

And I’m done trying

So maybe one day you’ll get off your high horse

Maybe one day something could happen

Once we both mature

Perhaps the distance is what we need

I mean, almost a thousand miles?

That’s pretty good

But who knows?

It’s not really worth thinking or worrying about

At least in this moment, it’s not

I guess I just wish that we could figure this out

Discuss what happened with us

What went wrong?

Cause honestly, I have no idea

What we had made me happier than I’ve been in a long time

It was probably the happiest I’ve ever been

So what happened to change that?

Was it something I did?

Was it something you needed?

I suppose I just miss what we had

Why can’t we talk about this?

What are we afraid of?

Cause I know, despite everything that happened, I need you in my life

And, I don’t know, I like to think you feel the same – I hope you do

I guess I just wish that one day we’d figure this out

But to be honest, I’m fine where things are now

I’m glad that we’re comfortable enough with each other

That we can, I guess, put all that behind us

And just be friends

I think that’s what we both need the most right now

I’m glad that you can be that for me

And I’m glad I can be that for you 

Written July 2013

By Elisse Cook

Let Yourself

There’s a moment in life

A moment that takes your breath away

And that feeling of not being able to breathe…

It’s okay

It’s okay because in that moment

You feel so much

Except scared

It seems like you can’t be scared

Or angry

Or sad

Anxious

Frustrated

…Just happy

Content

Life seems to have gotten so much simpler

And it’s peaceful

Suddenly all those dark skies

That endless rain

The constant storms

They’re gone

People say there’s always a rainbow after rain

You know what?

They’re right

There’s a moment in life

A moment that takes your breath away

You can’t breathe

You can’t think

You just let life happen

And when you let life happen

Take its course

Things make sense

And you realize something

Those dark skies

That endless rain

Those constant storms

They may have been there

In fact, they are there

But hiding behind it is that rainbow

It’s always there

So why don’t we notice it?

I don’t know

I’m still trying to figure it out

But you know what?

Despite all the hardships

Life can be good

Life is good

So let those moments take your breath away

However small they may be

It’s incredible how amazing life is

When we let go of the very thing that allows us to live

It’s those moments that we’ll always remember

So let yourself have moments

Just let life happen

And be captivated in the journey

Let yourself be mesmerized

Let yourself be you

Let yourself fall in love

Just let go of what’s holding you back

And just let yourself be happy

Written August 9, 2013

By Elisse Cook