I Will Be...

I will be the constant
The one who's in your life
I will be there fighting
When all else leaves behind strife
I will always love you
Despite what may occur
I will always be proud of you
Of this much I am sure

Written September 29, 2013
By Elisse Cook

Regarding the love our Savior, Jesus Christ, has for us.

Gestalt

The perception of this situation
Is making it hard to tell
The way we feel about ourself
To know if we already fell

The sensations aren't connecting
Aren't transducing all the way
So am I perceiving this correctly?
There isn't much understanding at bay

I feel like this is processing top-down
Isn't it supposed to be bottom-up?
I feel like we're just making assumptions
Too far away to see the lack of water in the cup

So we find ourselves here yet again
Trying to figure things out
We're both unsure of what we want
Our perceptions are causing us to doubt

I'm not sure that I should need you
And I know you feel the same
So I'm thinking we should let each other go
Cause we're trying to win a losing game

Written October 1, 2013
By Elisse Cook

(My way of memorizing the terms in my Cognition class)

It's Kind Of

It's kind of a funny feeling
The way I'm beginning to feel
The way I'm smiling at nothing
The way I'm feeling like it's real

It's kind of a goofy scene
As I'm dancing down the hall
I'm singing a little song in my head
Caring not if I start to fall

It's kind of a silly situation
As I'm falling into your arms
It's not something I'm used to
But it's working my heart like a charm

It's kind of a laughable reason
The way I'm acting about you
I'm loving this carefree feeling
It's been more then past due

It's kind of a giddy sensation
As my adventurous nature takes off
Suddenly life is forever engaging
Like a dream had by Cristophe

It's kind of a fluttering of butterflies
That are flying all about
They cause me to laugh at the simplest of things
Leaving no space, at all, to doubt

Written September 27, 2013
By Elisse Cook

Dragon - Part 2 (The Finale)

What we had was nothing but a dragon.
I used to think it was real. Beautiful. Magical.
But now I see it was fake. Nonexistent. Just a myth.
I used to think that I wasn't okay about that.
But you know what?
I am okay with it.
I'm okay without you.
I'm more than okay, in fact.
I'm giddy.
I'm perfect.

I used to think that maybe we could try again later.
But why would I want that?
Why would I want someone who doesn't care?
I don't want that and I will never have that again.
I refuse to have that again;
Because I have control over my decisions.
And my ultimate decision...it's not you.
And it never will be.

I'm glad that I finally see that.
I wish I would've seen it sooner;
But then where would the learning experience be?
That's why you were put into my life.
So I could learn and see what I don't want.
What I shouldn't want.
That may sound harsh.
Okay...it is.
But that's life.
It's harsh, not fair, and challenging.
But...it's also perfect.

Everything that I've had to experience...I was supposed to.
I'm being tested.
I've had my fair share of trials.
But despite all that...
Life is perfect.
And it's perfect for me.

Written September 17, 2013
By Elisse Cook

Tell Me a Story

Tell me how I feel

Tell me how I will be

Tell me what I know

Tell me who I want to be

Tell me that I’m loved

Tell me that you care

Tell me I’m the perfect me

Tell me I’m worth the dare

Tell me the story of us

Tell me you love me so

Tell me you want me for a forever

Tell me I make you feel high when you should feel low

Tell me I’m worth the risk

Tell me I’m worth the fear

Tell me I’m what you’ve wanted

Tell me you’ll always hold me, dear

Tell me I can always count on you

Tell me you’ll always stay

Tell me you’ll be here no matter what

Tell me you’ll show me the way

Tell me that you’ve prepared

Tell me you’re something you’ve worked on

Tell me you’re proud of who you are

Tell me this isn’t just a con

Tell me what we have is eternal

Tell me you know we’re true

Tell me this is something you’ve prayed for

Tell me our love is something new

Tell me you’re willing to help me change

Tell me you’re willing to linger near

Tell me you’re willing to love me forever

Tell me my voice you’ll always here

Tell me our love was fantasy made real

Tell me you’ll never let me leave

Tell me you’ll always hold me tight

Tell me to me you’ll always cleave

Tell me you’ll love all of my quirks

Tell me you’ll love me despite my faults

Tell me you’ll love my little lost moments

Tell me our love will never be brought to a halt

Tell me there’ll be hard times

Tell me that we may fight

Tell me we’ll work through it

Tell me those hard times will make us burn bright

Tell me you’ll let your colors show

Tell me you’ll always be you

Tell me you’ll help me be me

Tell me we can always be true        

Tell me there’ll be good times

Tell me those times will be great

Tell me we’ll find joy in the hardships

Tell me the sorry’s will never be late

Tell me our love will be crazy

Tell me our love will be meaningful

Tell me our love will be simple

Tell me our love will be whole

Tell me you’ll never make me jealous

Tell me this is not some game

Tell me you’ve had some target practice

Tell me I’m where you’ve aimed

Written August 2013

By Elisse Cook

Dragon - Part One

What we had was nothing but a dragon.

Creatures we think are magical, mysterious, beautiful

Creatures we sometime wish could exist

But then someone comes around and says that they don’t

That’s what we had

Something that I thought was magical, mysterious, beautiful

Something that I thought was perfect

But to you, it was nothing

Something that never existed

So how do you expect me to feel about it?

Okay?

Content?

Dismissive?

Well I can’t.

You wanna know why?

Cause I put myself out on the line for you

I let myself hang by a thread.

Vulnerably

Intentionally

Heck, I didn’t even think about it

I was so caught up

I found myself so infatuated that when I got screwed over

I couldn’t help but feel blindsided

Taken advantage of

So, yeah.

I guess you could say I’m a little upset

But you know what?

Whatever

There’s nothing I can do about it

I tried, but you couldn’t care less

My wanting to have a two-way discussion

Turned into a one-way this is what’s going to happen

And I’m done trying

So maybe one day you’ll get off your high horse

Maybe one day something could happen

Once we both mature

Perhaps the distance is what we need

I mean, almost a thousand miles?

That’s pretty good

But who knows?

It’s not really worth thinking or worrying about

At least in this moment, it’s not

I guess I just wish that we could figure this out

Discuss what happened with us

What went wrong?

Cause honestly, I have no idea

What we had made me happier than I’ve been in a long time

It was probably the happiest I’ve ever been

So what happened to change that?

Was it something I did?

Was it something you needed?

I suppose I just miss what we had

Why can’t we talk about this?

What are we afraid of?

Cause I know, despite everything that happened, I need you in my life

And, I don’t know, I like to think you feel the same – I hope you do

I guess I just wish that one day we’d figure this out

But to be honest, I’m fine where things are now

I’m glad that we’re comfortable enough with each other

That we can, I guess, put all that behind us

And just be friends

I think that’s what we both need the most right now

I’m glad that you can be that for me

And I’m glad I can be that for you 

Written July 2013

By Elisse Cook

Let Yourself

There’s a moment in life

A moment that takes your breath away

And that feeling of not being able to breathe…

It’s okay

It’s okay because in that moment

You feel so much

Except scared

It seems like you can’t be scared

Or angry

Or sad

Anxious

Frustrated

…Just happy

Content

Life seems to have gotten so much simpler

And it’s peaceful

Suddenly all those dark skies

That endless rain

The constant storms

They’re gone

People say there’s always a rainbow after rain

You know what?

They’re right

There’s a moment in life

A moment that takes your breath away

You can’t breathe

You can’t think

You just let life happen

And when you let life happen

Take its course

Things make sense

And you realize something

Those dark skies

That endless rain

Those constant storms

They may have been there

In fact, they are there

But hiding behind it is that rainbow

It’s always there

So why don’t we notice it?

I don’t know

I’m still trying to figure it out

But you know what?

Despite all the hardships

Life can be good

Life is good

So let those moments take your breath away

However small they may be

It’s incredible how amazing life is

When we let go of the very thing that allows us to live

It’s those moments that we’ll always remember

So let yourself have moments

Just let life happen

And be captivated in the journey

Let yourself be mesmerized

Let yourself be you

Let yourself fall in love

Just let go of what’s holding you back

And just let yourself be happy

Written August 9, 2013

By Elisse Cook